do not need to be elaborate

T.T

Back to reality

Just came back from Maui,Hawaii. Back to work for the 2nd day. Yawn. still feeling a lil jet lag. Hawaii is great! gonna update my whole trip on the next post :)

Holiday~

4days raya holiday + one day mc.
1st raya holiday-work till 7am.
2nd raya holiday work till around 5pm , went out for dinner, and had an accident. a stupid suspected drunk/had med driver bang our car from back. i hurt my neck. he dint want to give any information about him self. so we went off to police station after taking photos of his car. damn bad luck
3rd day raya, rest, night went to 'urut' my neck
4th day raya, morning dad gave me a pain killer for my neck. allergic on it and causes rashes all over my body and both eyes swollen like gold fish~ T.T went to the doctor and he check my neck. he say my neck muscle is swollen , but it will be ok with some rest. night went to 'urut' my neck.
mc- whole day rest, work for few hours at the afternoon, night when for 'urut' my neck.
TODAY- start working edi.... still have the lazy mode with me.... gotta throw tat away~ yawn~ tonight needa still go 'urut' after end work.

*Old man say " wa everyday go urut, will you fall in love with the 'urut' sifu anot?"
ahaha.... crazy old man....

will meet him for dinner tonight i hope... em... might not meet him for few weeks as he is going back to his hometown after exam this friday.... gonna miss him alot~ xoxo.

feeling

felt empty, when i'm down n depressed i have no one to share with... what a sad life i have.

3rd day

Damn... it's only the 3rd day.... i've already feel damn tired... it's not about the work actually. i feel stress. i repeat it's not about the work! it's bout my mom. haih~ she keep on scolding me cause i back home late. scold me cause i needa work till so late. like i have a choice wat time to leave. she keep on telling me tis kinda job is not good. it's jus the beginning! i cant imagine how will she react when i start shooting.... god~~~~ help me

My 1st job:)

Yesterday was my first day working at red comm.... it wasnt really a good 1st day :( first i went tru jam for 2 hours to reach the office which is at kelana jaya. working there is really different with my previous intern company... it's serious work. It's tiring but i know it is jus the beginning, but it good in a way cause i know i gonna learn alot from them. work till around 8pm yesterday and i almost cry when i'm in my car. -.-" i forgot to turn off the light again, so i cant turn on the engine. damn tired, sleepy, and hungry:( called my old man to come and help me. p/s: it's great to have my old man around :) hehe. then went to meng tin to eat curry fish head rice. he cheer me up:)

This morning i leave my house at 750am. suprisingly i reach office around 850am. not much jam. so here i am, writing blog alone in the office. emm.... wonder what do i needa do later?

a lil something to update....

i think....... i'm loving u more n more everyday:)

funny stuff !

what do love means...

i use to be very naive... i always think that when you are in love with someone, eventually u will get married and live happily ever after... just like what the fairly tales always claim.
however, as i grew up, the society and my surrounding has been telling me that TRUE LOVE or FOREVER LOVE is almost impossible to have. So call HAPPILY EVER AFTER might not even exist. why would i say so? now... think... a relationship might not even last a year! and if it really last for a year, a relationship of 10 years might end just like that too! Married couple might get divorce! Married couple with children might get divorce too! now.... think... what does LOVE means again? what does a RELATIONSHIP means again? yes... yes... i know there are couple who are still together until the day they die but... are you sure that they are still tat lovely or still love each other like they use to till that date? i bet only a small amount of them...

Dont misunderstand... haha i'm doing good with my boyfriend... it has been 2 years with him... i love him, yes i do love him madly. but at times i will wonder how long will we last. what would be our future? yes indeed.... LOVE is a complicated word.

it is always easy to have a relationship, but it is hard to maintain a relationship...

here i would wish my family and friend to be happily ever after with their other half. hope that happiness will always be with you.

Love,
Jiavern

another stage of my life..

i know it has been awhile since i last blogged... I've been busy or more accurately I've been lazy...

Have been thinking a lot these days ... about my future life... have been thinking the right decision to make so that i would not regret in future. Previously i have choose to futher my studies and take my Master at USM perhaps taking Film Studies or Screen Studies. But i dont know why suddenly i dont feel like it anymore. Friends around me have been sending their resume and attending interview even before the final exam ends. This really make me wonder.... "Why so rush?" It makes me feel like i'm a useless fella that waste her time and money for nothing. Honesty speaking, when i decided to take Broadcasting as my Degree Course, i actually know, deep inside i will not work in this field. But, yeah... u might be wondering now... if that is so, why do i still choose to study it? Now let me make this clear. I do not want to work in this field does not mean i'm not interested in this course. And you know what? this is the only course that i'm interested in except Advertising. And why do i still choose it even tho i know i might not be working this field? it is because i think most of the people do not work in their field of studies. A business man might turn out to be a broadcaster, or a broadcaster might turn out to be an insurans sales man. haha i'm just kidding about the insurans sales man, but i guess u know what i mean. Thus, i've decided to study what i'm interested in and what i will enjoy while learning it, and yes i do enjoyed my 4 years of studies. and NOW... it is another stage of my life, where i need to once again CHOOSE. I actually have few things in my mind which is :-

1. continue my studies -master in film studies or screen studies- and mayb work as a lecturer in the future
2.apply to be a cabin crew- i know this might not be related at all with what i'm doin and some might think that i've wasted my 4 years of studies. but it has always been my dream and i do think that there are nothing that is wasted as the knowledge that i get will always be with me no matter where i go
3.work in my broadcasting field and apply for production work
4.work in advertising field- production

no matter how, i seriously feel like resting for at least a month. Do nothing but rest. suddenly i feel like i'm really old. haha i dont know why....

i hope i could make the right decision so that i wont regret in future. Do leave ur comment for me if u hav suggestion :) and p/s: sorry for late update . hehe will update often after this i think, at least i hope haha

when tears dries

yup.... when it dries...

i'm ok now... we are ok now...
as usually, after blogging and crying i'll always be fine.
but this time, i recover faster then i tot i would.
and yeah.... i lose.... i speak to him first
i guess... i never get the chance to be silent.

However, no matter what happen to us, i know that we love each other very much.

silent

silent.....
we just went silent.....
and you walk off....

what does this means?
i dont understand you enough after we have been together for one year and seven month?
are you tired?
dont you have anything to say?
i doubt..... do we have anything to do or say?
if i go silent..... we'll always be silent then...
it is my fault?
are we really people from two different world?
perhaps it's always been you for being silent all the time....
perhaps it's been me for always wanted a conversation....

i know i love you
i know i always do love you
but..... can i carry on like this..... just because of the word LOVE

i cant let you go.....
i really really cant let you go
you are everything to me
i love you
love you so much
and i know.... you do love me too....
but..... what does love means?

why do i feel so hurt..
why is tears keep on falling down....
why cant i understand my self....

i always wondered .... everytime we fought..... if i dont talk to you first .... will you ever talk to me? when? but i never get the answer.... as i am always the one that talks first..... as i cant bare the pain when we fight and dont talk to each other....

i choose to be silent now.....
at least for now....
hoping to wait....
you to talk to me first....
but...
can i bare the pain?

Quattro~

Yesterday night i went to Quattro with Teddy. It was a great place to hang out, nice interior design, nice concept.
We first had our dinner at the restaurant which is the Summer area. The food was good but not fantastic , however i love the enviroment there:) To reach the restaurant we have to pass by the lounge which is he Spring area. We walk tru a path way which has nice design on both sides of the wall. As i was walking, i saw a few umbrella on the beginning and the ending of the path way. I tot it is for the customer if it rains out side.... but.... i know the reason why when i walk out. As the path way which is suppose to be dry is raining now!... i was suprise... haha never expected this is the reason why they provides umbrella. So the guy there gives us an umbrella and yet... we r still wet cause the umbrella is too small! but yeah... we do have fun.
Then we went to the club which is the Autumn area. I love the design in it, where the main color of it is in black and red which makes it feels mysterious. However, like all other clubs, it's a little bit too crowded. We went back around 12 plus as you know... i'm a cinderella... haha. oh one more funny part. i went clubbing in jeans, a basic tee, cardigan sweater and a sandals with no makeup and everyone there are wearing like they are goin to somekinda prom night. haha... so i'm the weird one there.:) haha. never expected to go clubbing that night. and yeah... i miss the winter part.... Teddy told me that, it is really cold in there and they provides sweater for the customer too! em... i sure needa visit there some other day:)

so... a lil info for those who is interested to visit there:)

Temp : +18ºCClimate : Windy
Feat : The longest bar in KL and entertainment provided by local and international DJ's The art of clubbing just went up a notch. Spanning a whopping 6,000 square feet, this colossal Japanese-themed club is the first of its kind in Malaysia. Autumn has all the elements to give you an unforgettable night out! Let the venerable guest DJs, both local and international, to drop the most infectious tunes and allow the ‘geishas’ to placate the driest of throats.

Temp : +26ºCClimate : Sunny

Feat : Cozy alfresco seating with view of KLCC Petronas Twin Towers
It's hot in KL all year round, so get some shade & slip on your summer best and cool off at Quattro's alfresco-styled eatery. While you're at it, dig into delightful Western and Asian fusion cuisine as you take in the magnificent view of KLCC and the Petronas Twin Towers.

Temp : +21ºCClimate : Cooling breeze and occasional rain

Feat : Live performances by bands, comedians, etc.
Find your comfort zone... Relax and lounge amidst the bounce of live music in a swanky ambience where the weather could be clear one minute or raining (indoors) the next. Park yourself at the stunning 'Aquarium Bar' (yes, the bar is actually made of real aquariums with live fish) if you're one who likes his/her drinks served fast and furious, with a bit of flair.

Temp : Main room @ around +10ºC; Snowing room @ -5ºCClimate : Mostly chilly with occasional snow

Feat : DJ's accompanied by live performers
When it snows, it blows, but not at the Winter Bar. Sure, the thermostats fluctuate and may drop to an all-time low. The temperatures vary: at approximately +8ºC to +10ºC in the main room to around -5ºC in the snowing room. At the Winter Bar, everyone gets a reason to dress up and be seen in (literally) the coolest bar in the city.

*The Raining Path Way*

17.11.08

i feel hurt.
seriously...ihateu

A poem from UTAR FCI student

I join Utar because its 'pien yi',
I also thought it will be a good uni,
but end i jalan jauh sampai nak mati,
because all the faculties telah dibahagi....

in UTAR everything is about money,
pay late then they phone tak henti henti
even worse the officers talk like your are seekor babi,
no manners no courtesy...

Admin is crazy,
you wanna find DSA they will ask you to go jalan from PA to PD
if you complain they will say dont be lazy,
remind again kena marah lagi...

If got class til malam nanti,
after 8 the air cond will mati,
when we complain heaty,
they say the building is empty,
meng meng still got security,
where got count as empty...

UTAR thought we are monkey,
payment also need to go different faculties,
from collecting receipt, filling in form to paying money,
From PC, PA, PC and need certified go PD ...

If your lazy please dont come to this uni,
coz UTAr bus service also need money,
they dont accept cash accept tickets what a pity,
70 cents if u want to beli....

people say come uni,
sure can tiao yu,
mana tau whole uni oso 'beh khi',
got leng lui also treat us like sui yu...

toilet in UTAR very geli,
if it dont stink then your very lucky,
but the floors are very watery,
if you complain to the aunty,
they also tak peduli,
because they will be very penat if they really wanna cuci,
coz UTAR boyz dunno how to aim 'n' pee,
so it is very smelly...

driving in UTAR is a liability,
Every time you park its very risky,
no parking lot for student in the uni,
jaya one got but its not free,
if double park then put call me message but berhati-hati,
or else saman Rm300 lagi ...

food in every faculties also 'bu pien yi',
they will call out numbers with mic like pertandingan menyanyi,
want cheaper and nicer food must go mamak kat tepi,
1 thing bad its hot and dirty ...

UTAR got alot of library,
small with insufficient facility,
going in also need to show ID,
people go in to walk and talk kat sana sini,
so students there are very noisy,
if your smart you know dont come in to study...

UTAR computer lab very mini,
Pen drive masuk lubang sure got baby,
pregnant with all the trojan, worm and cookies,
besides that the server very laggy,
in PA the lab is like CC,
student LAN games with any games terkini ...

UTAR staff dunno get how much for their salary,
if they have problem they will ask you tunggu sini,
change people also cannot solve it then they ask tunggu lagi,
then change people again also cant solve then very soli...

Chinese in UTAR is majority,
Dont know how to speak chinese then they will say you 'lan si',
good students always carry a electronic dictionary
so they will learn better for their study...

Dr Ling say UTAR is good so study disini,
but what is happening we also dont have berita terkini,
coz the moving to kampar is very lousy,
thats why all the good lecturers also wanna lari,
no one wanna go there as its a town like 3rd world country,
no KFC no MCD,
1 thing they have is MYFC,
trust me for that place is not counted as lousy...

assignment for GD banyak sampai mati,
rushing assignment setiap hari,
no need sleep macam zombie,
some more class will be 8 pagi,
so macam mana bangun ni,end up kena barred lagi...

Utar is not very lousy,
if you like to 'tham siu pin yi'
after you come in you will terpendam dalam hati,
coz UTAR my choice is the tagline of this uni...

Before come in kena sedar diri,
Got money please go oversea,
study abroad not like me,
if got choice cabut lari,
or end up like me always memaki.....


p/s :P nice poem~

not feeling good

I'm really sad... I feel hurt... I dont understand .
I dont understand my self. I dont know what I am thinking. I dont know what i want.
I always think that love will last forever and we should be faithful to the only one we love.
I still remember, a guy i once love tell me before this that the reason he do not choose me is because i'm a girl who is too serious in relationship. He say that love does'nt last forever, at least not in our age. I dont agree with him and he cant make him self to agree with me, so we dint choose to be together even though we do have feeling with each other.
I always hope that we will be together with one another till my last breath. But now, i'm afraid. I do not dare to hope for more. I dont know..... maybe we are so different. I know and i do understand that everyone in this world is different and no one in this world is perfect. But i really wish that i could find someone that could love my inperfection. Someone that would actually love things that i think i shouldnt do. Maybe u think you have done alot of things for me and think that i never understand you. But i also think that i have done even more for you and you never did make that effort to make me happy. Maybe what you have done to me is not wat i want u to do. Maybe what i've done for you is not what u want me to do.
What i can say is..... there is no right or wrong in a relationship, it's how much are you willing to give and how much do you expect to get back. I think i've given too much and i'm actually kinda tired with it. But that is just wat i think, mayb you think the opposite way. Expect? yes, maybe i'm expecting too much. I admit i'm a very demanding person, i expect alot from people around me.
I remember when i was young i always ask my friends....." Who would you choose? A person that u love more than he/she love's you ,or a person who love's you more then you love him/her". As for my answer? i will say " i would choose a person that i love him more then he loves me" .... I think i should change. I should choose a person that "Love me more then i love him" will my life be easier then? I dont know. I'm tired.

Money!

MONEY $$$$

Ok.... i'm not trying to be materialistic. I'm just being realistic! Once upon a time ago, people use to say " money is not everything but money is sure something!". Well.... i think they need to rephrase it to ; "Money is not only something, It's F**KING every single thing!".

Don't believe it? Ok... let's come out with some situation. We will have a look on a human basic needs according to the MaslowHierarchy :-

Ok we will just start from bottom to top. Physiological, breathing,food, water,sex,sleep, homeostatsis, excreation. Obviously food and water is where we use our money the most. How much do you spend for your breakfast/lunch/dinner? Well.... let's say you are f*ckin 'kiam siap'. You eat nasi lemak, morning rm1.20( u think it's still 80sen a? dude are u livin in kl? this is just a nasi lemak kosong for your information), for lunch you eat maggi cup Rm1.50(No? yes i hope it's still 90sen, but check out urself at the nearest market), dinner maggi+an egg Rm 2. So the total money u need to use for your food perday is Rm 4.70, so one month would be Rm141( if only u eat the same thing for the month)..... fuh~ now that is cheap. Drink? hey... we are on a budget.... so why dont you just drink plain water! oh no..... they charge 40sen for plain water??? damn.... change plan... u either dun drink or you bring your own water from home. Just drink the water from the tap, dont cook it, because if u cook it u need gas, gas need money. So that's it.... Next sex? hell yeah u need money for sex! if you dont have a gf but u are dyin for sex, u will need to visit the 'kandang ayam'....WARNING!- In this place.. no money no talk!, if you have a partner, it would be easier, but u still need money, this is call "the long time investment" money for "maintainence". Excreation? "aiya...shit only ma... also need money meh?" ... well of course it's free if u do it at your home, but if you are at a mall, you will be charge min 20sen max Rm5. WTF?? Rm5 to use the toilet? "your shit wrap wit gold one izit?". OKOK i think we need to stop here...Next chapter.

Safety....When ever you hear this word, you will hear another word next coming up next... which is INSURANS. I dont think i need to list down every Insurans type to you because i bet you already knew it. About the price? haha.... don't ask about it.... i think if u add in the ki lik ka lak it's already more then your one month makan money above.

Love.... friendship, family and sexual intimacy. Who say dont need money for that? To maintain your friendship u need to often come out for "Yam Cha time" there! MONEY again! okok... you dont wanna waste your petrol to go out... well at least call to update on each other life.... there! MONEY AGAIN! same goes for family and for your love one. My boyfriend once told me that, "To pamper someone, you need money!" after thinking about it, i do agree on him. you see... if u wan to pamper someone, you will need to c them often, then you need petrol money. If you see them for the whole day means your makan money has to x2( dont tell me you are asking your bf/gf the same meal with you?) you want to make your partner happy, then you are buying stuff that he/she like.... THERE YOU GO! MONEY AGAIN!

Esteem... nowadays, people spend money for this more then anything else! They want to look good, then only they will have high self esteem. They spend from top to toe :- professional hair stylish cut, make ups, branded cloth and shoe, manicure and pedicure, go to fitness center and etc. "sam leng chi yin leng(if your heart is beautiful, naturally you will be beautiful" F**k it.... try telling girls/boys about this statement and ask them not to groom them self. I bet there will be no more jam in KL because no one is goin out to show their ugly face.

Self actualization..... solving problem? well this is easy.... but to really solve a problem you need money... example: a police stop you and how do you solve your problem ? 2 option, A- take the saman and go, B-" abang boleh bagi satu kali lagi chance ka?", then put ur money under your ic and hand it to him". There... problem solve... how sweet.


So, you must be thinking.... why the hell did i came out with this topic. I was actually kinda stress and having financial problem. The famouse quote of the day for the Malaysian is " Aiya minyak naik la, semua pun naik la!" so, makan naik, air naik, gas naik, electricity naik, expenses naik,salary jer yang tak naik naik... aih..... my salary a month around Rm400, well this consider alot compare to with my other friends who is also doin their internship. So after i started working i did not ask money from my parents anymore, they use to give me Rm 800 for rent and living at pj last time. Ok so , what can i do with Rm400, my phone bill around Rm100, parking Rm50+, so that left me around Rm250 for a month! So, i can only use around Rm8 per day, no shopping no movie time. BUT!!!! AKU ORANG KL! how can i live without shopping or going to cinema. So i need to cut down on my food or eat more maggi. aih... damn pai seh la... i every eat maggi at office until everyone in the office sound me for eating maggi everyday. I can only say "I memang love eating maggi ge ma....." takkan wanna say i po kai jo wo.... hahahha.... haih... stress a....

"Money is not only something, It's F**KING every single thing!".

Bye bye....

This reminds me of my grandma and grandpa.... muaks i love and miss u guys so much..

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up highWe will never say bye
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate togethe
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

What a week.....

I'm sitting in my office chair looking like a dead fish... feel sick and tired.
it was a busy week for me.. almost every day reach late since last Sunday. However, i enjoyed it alot.

Last night i went to Damansara,Vintry with Sue and Erng Mei, it was suppose to be a belated birthday dinner with Mei. Yes, i know.... its really a late belated birthday. I'm sorry erng mei... it all Sue's fault! *wink ^^. Haha you know la... someone is a superstar already of course it will be hard to date her out. I am glad to know that Sue, our Miss Malaysia 2008 are still the same old Sue i know from Ktar. The sweet, friendly,cute, blur girl that still loves Jay! hehe...
Like what Erng Mei say, it's like we never miss out anything in our life, we are just catching up from where we stop last time. Surprisingly, last night was the 1st time for 3 of us to chill out together out of uni! Haha...Yes we are best friend in uni but it's weird we do not really go out together. It's great meeting you guys up...eventho it took us almost 2 week to date our princess! haha... muaks love you guys... and... haha i miss the Lin's family... if u still remember... :- doh lin, lau lin, sai lin, mou lin, bo lin , jo lin , yau lin......damn.... i forget the other lin's ..... okok... the member of the lin's family : Su lin(ops... lin?? haha), Erng Mei, Me, Joshua, Balvin, Phui Yhin, Carmen, Jeffrey, Willy.... damn.... who else did i miss?

After meeting up wit the Lin's, i went back to PJ to celebrate our MR. QUEK birthday.... we wanted to make a suprise party for him.. but we fail... cause Quek found out about it.... He say that we cant cheat him... ok fine.... then we'll not celebrate ur birthday next year... will u be suprise then? hehe.... i hope u enjoyed it... Happy Birthday again Quek!

Tomorrow, i'm going to Ee Von birthday party... Another best friend of mine that i have to meet for ages. So... i'll just wish her a early birthday wish here.... haha if only she read this blog. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EE VON! muaks....

I dunno why... it seems like everyone around me are having party for their birthday.... My mom say.... If 21 don't do party, then when only you wanna do o.... erm maybe that's the reason why... It's ok :) i love birthday! i love celebrating birthday with my friends and family! and most important of all! I LOVE BIRTHDAY CAKE! and i duno why! haha i wish i can blow the candle when ever i saw a birthday cake! haha...... birthday birthday faster come! 2 MORE MONTH! 2 MORE!

Equation for the day

i was reading my previous post as i was too boring.... i saw a post.... equation of the day.... so i came out with an idea do write a new equation for the day


internship ≠ working
; internship = {eat (⅔mcD + ⅓ Pizza hut + Sapura Food court) + sleep [(while reading script + when cleaning stor+ office curi tulang) x (nap³ + nightsleepin + pretendin²)] + stress (√24.7) + 90% Online + sick (3 in 1) + sad(!??! Unknown) + lazy(undeleted virus) + Reading blog} - work

True Fitness

Chin Yan and I went to True Fitness yesterday to use the Pro Direct Card that i have bought ages ago which cost me RM29.90.

I was quite excited at first but the mood turns when the Fitness Counselor came. I dont really like her as she was not as friendly as the other Fitness Counselor that i had met before this, plus... i hate the way she speaks where she will make u feel bad and low self confidence. Is this their strategy to make u join them? She also tell us that we have to write down our friend name and contact number for marketing purpose. I just don't feel comfortable to give my friend contact number to someone i barely knew. however, at last i still have to write down because she say this is one of the procedure. and guess what? we need to fill in 20 friends name.What the F**K?
Acoording to the coupon, we are suppose to get a door gift which is a shoe bag if i'm not mistaken, but the bag is out of stock. She then tell us " Oh, beg ini dah habis stock , tapi kalau awak isi 30 lagi contact number kawan awak, saya boleh bagi awak botol air free". I look and her then turn to Chin Yan showing here the "WTF" face. Is not that i want the bag or what... but it is stated on the coupon that they will give us another gift if the bag is out of stock. So i ask her, " oh jadi botol air ini replace bag ni la? sebab sini cakap kalau stock habis akan replace dengan benda lain." The she reply, " oh takde bag ini memang dah habis, akan masuk stock nanti, bila ada saya bagi tau la, u isi la nama kawan awak saya bagi botol free, ala isi je bukannya susah." She is like forcing us to write down.... desperate ... I really dont like this... i gave her back the paper and say i dont have so many friends ... fine....next chapter...
Then she bring us to tour the Fitness center, showing us the facilities and all. Next she bring us to measure our fats.... For Female 21 years old, the normal fats should be 25-30%(if i'm not mistaken... said by them) and guess how much is my fats? 37% ! and Chin Yan has 33% of fats! That means we are OBESE!!!!!!! They told us that we are OBESE! damn.... i know i'm fat....but i never know i'm OBESE!!!!!!!! we'll not that i do not admit that i'm fat(*gagaga... nono i'm jus big size...) but i dont think their measurement is correct.... they did not take my height or etc... erm mayb i'm really obese.... but u know what that 'menyakitkan hati saya'.... when she tell me that u know your fats are more then me(*image she like my elder sister size!which is almost 2 size bigger then me!) and she say when i walk she can see my fats moving... like toin toin toin....

SABAR JE LAR!!

working ;)

sorry.... to my readers....(*haha if only there are) ya i realise i really haven't update for quite sometime.... haha erng mei don't la scold me... i actually almost forgotten that i have a blog. hehe... well there is alot i ahve to up date here.... of course ... something to be proud of is ... "CONTAMINATED" won :) i'll up date on this soon...
i'm actually doing my industrial traning now.... i'm working at Astro Shaw-Tayangan Unggul. ya... haha and i'm suppose to be working now... hey! i mean i am working now *winks. i miss uni life so muchh~
currently in pre-production stage for our company new feature film. working life is ......... tiring, hard and challenging....but .... starting to enjoy it.. :) learning alot here.... next month we will start shooting! the Production period, the most exciting period and also the time that is going to kill me ...hehe..... i can't wait for it to come! hehe.... hope i'll enjoy it... update with you soon~ muaks

my new home...

A note that my dad send to us:-

Today 19th. January 2008 is both a sad and happy day. Sad because this old house has brought back many sweet memories. I have seen all my kids gradually growing up from school days to this day where they are now. Looking back this old house is where your grandpa and grandma used to come to visit us especially especially their little grand children. It also remind me of how me and mum have raised your all up through sweat and tears. But as a saying goes life has to move on and we must look forward to seek better quality of life. As I said before, I have always treat my kids as little children even though they have grown up because every time I look at them they always bring back memory of old days when they a still a minor. Anyway, may our new house bring better fortune and prosperity to all of us..


p/s:-yups.....i hope the same too.....to my friends....u are invited to come visit my new house anytime.....hehe....jus contact me~ keep in touch ya....muaks

it's chinese new year~

yeah~ it's chinese new year...
but i dont feel like it's chinese new year.....
i'm celebrating chinese new year first time in my life at kl....
it was......boring....
and....the thing about chinese new year......
it reminds me about grandma and grandpa......
i miss them alot.....
miss the time grandma will call us and ask us what do we want to eat on the reunion night dinner......
i miss the first day of cny morning where my grandma and grandpa will come in the room and wake me up and say.....gong xi fa chai....nah ur ang pao....i miss the moment my grandma was nagged about everything that my grandpa do ....and then my grandpa will look at me and show me those funny face and try to imitate my grandma action......i really miss them......
chinese new year means nothing without them around......
i miss u ....i love u grandma...i love you grandpa

nothing much to say

Jayvern and Lven

yaya....we are happy...haha...i just realise i never really say alot bout our relationship here.....

welll so far so good lor...just like other couples.....doing normal couple things....haha....

i dont know what to say anymore....haha......just.....happy. lo...haha that's all....muaks